Woe is Not Me

You ever have one of those days that's so bad but you refuse to let it get you down. I worked my ass off today reminding myself of all of the amazing things I have to be grateful of. And there is so much. Just writing that makes me less irritated.

But then I woke up.

Hubby and I snipped in the car at 8 AM. Then I got pulled over at 9:30 because my tags were expired. Not just a little. But four months. That's right folks. I'm a dumbass. It's too long to explain why I thought they were current, but the fact of the matter is that I didn't look at my own damn license plate and now I have two tickets. One for $200 that's for the emissions and one that's for $100 for the expired registration. Yippee.

I got pulled over in front of an office building, and after the cop left I sat there and cried with my head in my hands for a minute and when I looked up I had in audience in the office in front my car. Such polite people.

So I moved on and went to the gym where I tried to work out my frustrations literally, but eventually ended up in the Sauna still frustrated. So I laid there and said "thank you" for everything I could think of, down to the orthopedics that are supposedly helping my crappy feet.

I felt better. Then Hubby tells me that to replace his starter will be $400. So, there's $400 plus the $300 in tickets, PLUS the $200+ to get the registration and emissions renewed. Sigh...I STILL did not let it get me too down.

Then we got snippy again.

Then we went to a hockey game (Aces kicked sweet butt, btw) and snipped again.

Then I came home and had to come home and 'feel' things that I have learned to avoid quite well as of late. I got pushed over the edge.

Did I mention I love Grey Goose's?

I'm on my way to bed now, halfway back up to happy. Still slightly down, but have too much shit to do and something has to go. So now all I have to do is decide what has to go. Fun fun...

Relationships Suck

Yes, I know that I'm being negative. But not in a place in my life where I'm not pleased with most of my relationships. They're all out of balance or changing. There are really only two connections that I have that feel solid and normal. Another is me being too judgemental or it's just time to grow apart and another is just too sad and frustrating to explain.

At what point do you decide whether or not a friendship is worth it? How long do you wait when the going gets tough to see if it gets any better? Especially if you're sure neither of you is going to change.

Then, what do you do when you've had an awful fight with someone that uncovers some horrible patterns in your relationship and when you get past the anger to extend the olive branch and start over they hand it back?

I can stand on my own two feet. I have an amazing husband who is always there if I need to lean, but I'd like to have my life back please. Life is too short and I don't want to spend it hurting.

Makes me want to move. blegh.